tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-233000182024-02-20T22:24:24.662-05:00Amorette.neta blog + gift shopAmorettehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17970712422154732460noreply@blogger.comBlogger78125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23300018.post-60173494811016986392017-05-03T17:17:00.002-04:002017-05-03T17:17:39.728-04:00Shop LifeThe shop was doing much better this year... but it has been a bit quiet the past week or so... but I'm still hopeful. I had to figure out how to pre-pay my taxes. The IRS makes it very easy! The MA state is a doozy to figure out. You'd think it would be easier to send them money! I had my first in person sale which was fun. Its pretty sweet to enable someone to find THE ring via social media. I honestly wasn't sure social media worked at all. There were some nosy folks nearby too who had to ask some questions. I should get some business cards made just in case.
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Speaking of getting things made someone is trying out printing some rings at work... and while it is very expensive to do so I am interested in the possibility of only doing the custom designing part and hiring out to do the rest if the client was to pay that expense. I guess in that sense I could even sell a downloadable pattern since there are already vendors available to do the printing and casting. I am not sure if there are any services to do the casting and set stones however, so I might have to finish up that last step. It would just be prohibitively expensive to have it as a ready-made product... unless my shop was wildly more popular haha.
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I've started the reboot of my mom's art website. I'm trying to get her to start a blog and to make a web gallery of her art... I'm not sure she wants to part with any of her paintings though. I'm not the best influence with my sporadic blogging! I do however wish to part with *most* of my finds :)
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Summer was almost here last weekend... we got stuck in beach traffic on our way to our usual hiking spot. But its back to windy and a bit chilly with the sun sometimes peeking out. Its birthday/mother's day weekend or semi-annual clean up the house week so the shop is likely to be a bit neglected but I have tons of inventory to organize and post once the place doesn't look like a pig-sty :) I'm picking up some cheesecake from 7ate9 and Boston cream pie from the Omni... its a very good excuse to have a tiny slice of cheesecake.
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So far we've already done two road trips this Spring. One weekend we went up to Lake Placid NY and just putz'd around, got caught in a lot of rain, pushed the car up a mountain and had some excellent chocolates (and brunches). On the way back we stopped by Lake George which looks like it will be super packed come Summer. It reminded me of Old Orchard Beach in Maine. We've already done a road trip up to Maine on a gorgeous Sunday and are looking forward to many more this summer. We visited Auburn and Mount Apatite. Saw several guys hard at work sifting through dirt looking for gems. I hope to go back and find something better than quartz and mica - of which there was a lot. We just need to know where to look!
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<3 AmoretteAmorettehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17970712422154732460noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23300018.post-79158054572742985292016-08-05T13:14:00.001-04:002016-08-05T13:18:12.838-04:00This year's Shakespeare in the Park was a play I haven't seen yet; Love's Labour's Lost. I got down there about 2 and a half hours before the show and got the best seats I could (tall chairs are relegated to behind blanket seating which is behind $80/chair seating). I think this is the first year I've been able to see and hear the play so it was definitely easier to follow. The story seemed simpler than the other plays. I was slightly disappointed there was no cheesy on stage fight to the death. The actors made the words seem funnier than I think they would on the page. There was also some silly dancing and costumes. The whole concept of guys breaking their vows of celibacy by making new vows to the first pretty women they see is comedy in itself. I wonder if back then any woman who was well off, dressed nice (and clean) would be the prettiest.
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It was nice when the sun was up - I hid behind someone else's chair for shade - but once it dropped and the pretty sunset was gone the wind came up a bit and we wrapped up in the blanket I put down for our feet. At least the rain stayed away. I didn't have time to put a picnic together so I just went to Earl of Sandwich and got some wraps. They were pretty decent, not too badly priced - and way easier than making them at home and bringing them. There were some people staked out at one of the restaurants tables with huge containers of deli foods (like potato salad and such) chowing down on a brick of cheese. I was jealous (of the cheese). We planned on trying the special Shakespeare ice cream sundae after dinner but it was too chilly.
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Unfortunately weather is looking stormy this weekend - even all the way up in Vermont. What do people do when it's raining in the summer? I just realized indoor water parks are a thing - the nicest one I found is over $300 for a room and admission! They boast of always tropical weather... But their temperatures are a <i>little</i> cooler than the actual tropics. Maybe now is the time to call up that rock climbing gym and ask if our 10 day pass from last year is still good! Alternatively, a brewery tour in nearby NH sounds plausible. It's a good thing we postponed our RI beach trip planned for tomorrow. It would have been a bust just like our Old Orchard Beach ME trip - beach weather wise at least. We didn't step a foot on the sand!
<3 AmoretteAmorettehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17970712422154732460noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23300018.post-17886094631443878262016-08-04T13:14:00.000-04:002016-08-05T12:30:18.605-04:00Beach Day ThunderIts August already! We are still waiting for some good beach days. Every time we seem to plan a beach excursion there are thunderstorms. A couple weeks back we went to Revere Beach and the sky started to get dark and as we packed up and headed off hail started to fall! We were trapped under some trees with a bunch of other beachgoers until it finally ended. The little kids had THE saddest faces ever. Then of course we headed back to the sand sculpture festival to have ice cream :) The sand sculptures did not look at all different following the storm, those things are tough. Boston hasn't really hit 95+ temperatures that I require for beach weather.<br><br>We did make it out to Vegas for a little trip to take a look at all the parks out there. We saw red rock canyon and fire valley and drove a long winding road down towards the Hoover Dam before heading back to Vegas. So HOT. But dry hot so not as much perspiration as the humid hot of Boston. The beach is always cooler than the city, but the only beach in Vegas is for hotel guests only :P We did manage to find a cool spring fed swimming hole on the winding road but it had a warning about bacteria so we just dipped our toes.<br><br>I think some VT mountains are in our future, looking at the map to figure out where it isn't thunderstorming - since it seems to always be thunderstorming!<br><br>Etsy is having some issues with processing orders so I had to disable the checkout system - That means manual PayPal invoices only. Keeping an eye on that and hopefully they fix all their WorldPay issues so I can start posting new items!<br><br> <3 AmoretteAmorettehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17970712422154732460noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23300018.post-25911957076535907092016-01-19T14:00:00.002-05:002016-01-19T14:01:55.588-05:002016The season has been good so far. Interest at the shop is picking up. Had a wonderful New Years in Montreal with the bf. We lucked out on weather and it was around 30F during our visit with only tiny pretty snowflakes. The weather dropped to 6F the day after we left! We also lucked out on accommodations and stayed with a new to AirBNB host in a fabulous place. I'm sure next time we try to stay there it will have many good reviews (and maybe a higher fee! lol).
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I've often thought hosting on AirBNB but now that I've started selling on Etsy my spare room is very much occupied. I've that some people who host on there are using it to rent out extra apartments they own, I suppose instead of renting it out on a yearly lease. I am not sure that there is an advantage to doing AirBNB instead of leasing the place out, unless they want to use the apartment to let relatives and friends stay occasionally and this allows them to reserve times for that.
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The last time I was in Montreal was for Canada Day when I was in high school. I remember the fireworks being amazing and Celine Dion singing... but New Years fireworks aren't as great. There was a huge turnout for a concert at the waterfront and then short fireworks and a mad dash to the train before all the others got there. lol. I think next time I'll go back for Canada Day again, it will be warm and we can visit the other outdoor parks.
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We visited the biodome and that was neat but the best part I think was Mount Royal. We were tired from walking a ton (my pedometer was at 15000+ steps) but we made it up to Mount Royal as night fell and climbed up to the chalet and looked out over the city. It was a cool place and next time I'll make sure to bring some CAD so I can get some hot chocolate from the vending machines. We saw lots of people cross country skiing and a couple people jogging (in snow! in sneakers!) and there was a tour on snow shoe. I do want to try snow shoeing but I don't think that was the right place to start we would have been beat if we had attempted to march around in the snow -up a mountain- for a couple hours. I'll try a lesson for a half hour first to see how it goes!
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Winter isn't as great for travelling as the summer... obviously. We did a ton of camping in the summer and it was fun to get away on the weekends but I think my little compact car will be snowed in at home fairly soon. I've started planning a short trip to Miami FL so that will abate my travel lust for a bit. I've never been and I wish the trip could be longer but I hope I can see the everglades and the keys. I'm not super keen on the beach... it will be far too busy!
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<3 amoretteAmorettehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17970712422154732460noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23300018.post-39636403800748118342015-12-10T15:18:00.001-05:002016-01-19T14:02:00.509-05:00Cold WeatherI've noticed everyone coming into work this season is sniffling, coughing, Rudolph-nosed. Me included. It doesn't help me stay healthy when I come in contact with a large number of people everyday. It might be a little bit of holiday stress, budget stress, travel stress, final exams stress by association? lol. That and its cold one day hot the next. Warm spell coming this weekend and I'm hoping to get over this cold so I can get outside and do some hiking before its officially stay-in-and-watch-Netflix season. When I'm not feeling well that's usually what I do. Eat my cup-of-noodle and watch some Netflix with the cat. It seems that BBC shows are all over Netflix. I watched <i>River</i> last week and it was a series about an aging detective who loses his partner to an unknown gunman and while he's trying to solve the crime we see him talk to dead people, explain his visions to a psychiatrist, and confess his love for his dead partner. I found it a bit Romeo+Juliet for seniors. This week I started watching <i>Broadchurch</i>, it was suggested because I've watched <i>Dr Who</i> and it feels like a reunion of <i>Dr Who</i> and <i>Torchwood</i> meets <i>River</i>. Tennant's obviously not a similar character but you can see bits where he acts similar (when he gets excited). We are again solving murders, the protagonist - played by David Tennant - is the lead on the case and he's going through health issues. Later on Eve Myles comes in as a woman under his protection in a second case. Its interesting in the solve a crime way without the visible brutality. Its more about the aftermath and the people left behind to sort things out. I still miss half of what everyone says with the accents though. Or maybe the cold is getting to my ears. 4 days till my boyfriends birthday, 15 days till Christmas, 22 days till my sisters birthday. Lots of things to do! No time for colds lol. I'm hoping I can figure out how to promote my site and my shops better as my finances are a bit doomed at the moment. The most economical thing to do is stay home and watch more shows haha.
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<3 amoretteAmorettehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17970712422154732460noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23300018.post-28124928680341638282015-11-19T17:06:00.000-05:002015-11-19T17:08:41.297-05:00A Facebook page means you are a business (lol)I've just opened a Facebook page for my Etsy shop <a href="http://www.facebook.com/amorettenet">amorettenet</a>. Self promotion is really confusing and time consuming! I'm trying to figure out what social media is better, so far Instagram is the only one that gets any attention - albeit mostly from other people self-promoting their brands. I don't have a tumblr, I don't even know what 'tumblr' is for! I have literally never been on it I'm already overwhelmed by all the "social" media.
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I'm not sure how social any of it is unless its someone I *actually* know and will see "IRL" communicating with me. Over heard some people talking on the train the other day about how they "quit tumblr cold turkey and now they feel like they can be so much more productive." Good idea. Or be too old and don't join :) I do like Facebook because that's where I get most of my news & current affairs info. The funny thing is that my boyfriend will say something to the effect of "did you see the..." and I'll be like yep that was on my feed too. Despite us only having 2 friends in common and I never share things to him. Its a small world. Etsy does seem like a big sea of people. I browse just to find things I like and I feel like I could literally browse all day. The internet is a time eater like that :p
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Its not *easy* to start an online shop. I used to run an online shop/webhost/design business... in high school. It was a lot different back then. The internet *was* smaller. It was easy to startup and become a popular site - if you had a common interest with a lot of other like-minded people. Simply because there weren't THAT many other websites out there. You could buy domain names with 1 word... for $75/yr. I haven't really done anything since then, just a website here or there at random b/c someone already knew I could make them. I dropped out of the web business because I was too busy. It takes a TON of time. So I'm back again, with no audience and no hook to bring in my like-minded folks. Time to "re-brand" myself. Or find my "brand" that's already out there. Hahah.
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Relates back to life in general. As we change from year to year... our brand does change. Who we are is not a constant. Who I spend most of my time with is not a constant. My Facebook friends are pretty constant though haha. That tumblr quitter said they had friends on there for 7 years. I've had friends on Facebook since it started, the same ones, and I've rarely added new ones since college. I really don't see it as a way to meet new people (moreso to keep in touch with people you've met). Blogger certainly doesn't seem that way either. I don't feel compelled to comment on/email bloggers and make friendships. They are far too busy anyway! The only place I make friends on the internet is on Meetup, and that's making friends IRL because they encourage you *not* to talk online. Old school.
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<3 amoretteAmorettehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17970712422154732460noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23300018.post-24210675964200800452015-11-15T17:23:00.000-05:002015-11-15T19:31:46.701-05:00Netflix Marathon SundayI routinely get frustrated with the entertainment offerings. If I feel like something is full of gratuitous violence and/or nudity it isn't entertaining to me and frankly makes me angry. I'm not into the shock you with a rape or murder or both in the first minute of a TV show kind of drama. I don't need that negative visual stimuli and I don't know why people want to watch this on television. I often hear a show getting rave reviews only to find its just making me too sick to watch it. There's plenty of bad comedy too. I like when I find a show I can actually watch that's entertaining without gruesome visuals.
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Makes it kind of hard to choose what to watch with friends because I'm not into shows like Game of Thrones or The Walking Dead. The BF and I had some time to kill this weekend and we started and stopped a few things on Netflix, Hulu and HBO Go. Wound up marathoning Aziz Ansari's "Master of None" TV show on Netflix. He's not *the funniest* guy on his own but the show felt like good watching it. Its funny and stirs the pot about some concepts that make interesting conversation. It doesn't make me feel upset or scared or angry. Its entertaining and relatable. My kind of show. I generally get caught up in cheesey shows. I do watch shows like Dr Who and Sherlock (and for some reason The Flash) but I mostly love comedies.
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I have watched some dark shows like Dexter, Hannibal and Gotham but they aren't gruesome just for the shock, and its not constant gore, there's a good plot. Some comedies are way too dry, we tried to watch "w/Bob and David" and I just didn't feel the funny. There's also a short documentary "The Tiger and The Monk" that has me wanting to head back to Thailand. I think TV/entertainment is good if it gives you positive ideas. There's enough negativity out there. Especially recently. Politics literally hurt my head to hear them debate and all their "versions of the truth." Its hard to understand how some of these horrible people have fans. The same way its hard to understand how violent humans can be... I'd rather have my "entertainment" light when my "world news" is so grim.
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<3 amoretteAmorettehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17970712422154732460noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23300018.post-84377430332064675842014-12-18T22:01:00.001-05:002014-12-18T22:01:51.869-05:00When we are older<p dir="ltr">We are more confident because we know ourselves better. We know what we don't want. We know what will hurt and what will strengthen. We know what will make us happy or frustrate us. </p>
<p dir="ltr">Sure we know all that... but our hearts are still young fools. We still love whether or not it's good for us. We just know how to tell ourselves when it's enough, when it's time to say "no" and move on. We don't want to drag it out anymore.</p>
<p dir="ltr">I think it's easy to fall in love when you feel a connection to someone. It feels good even if they don't reciprocate because it gives you hope that you will find someone else like them who will love you back. There's a little struggle to let them go... but you're used to that by now. This isn't your first dance.</p>
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Amorettehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17970712422154732460noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23300018.post-18362505392455107372014-12-04T22:11:00.001-05:002014-12-04T22:46:53.351-05:00I'm looking for...<p dir="ltr">I'm not looking for a party boy, a sex toy, a provider, a father, a crutch, an ego boost, or arm candy. I'm not looking for the "I'll see you only on date night I've gotta hang with my bros and do my own thing 90% of the time." I'm looking for a best friend. I'm not a great explorer, a champion athlete, a genius, a crazy crafter, or eccentric in any way. I'm pretty damn normal. I'm looking for a best friend who enjoys having conversations with me, spending time with me, making plans with me... a man who wants to wake up next to me every day. I want someone who wants to start here with nothing with me, a stranger, and build a foundation--not stake a tent.  I don't want to feel like I'm putting on an act, striving to be perfect, and competing with other women. I want to be with someone who's love I can put my trust in. I'm looking for someone who is looking for the same thing and doesn't need to create all this "your life and my life" drama. I want to be a "we" and I don't want to be the only one to make compromises. I want a companion to share my adventures and my failures. I'm done with the "when times are good" guys. I'm done with pretending I'm anything other than what I am. </p>
<p dir="ltr">Sometimes I can see how it might be ok to bounce between short term relationships throughout a lifetime... because each person brings something new to your life... but it's not what I want. I want to have that history and the memory of having known each other when we were young, having so much shared experience--and being able to help, support and encourage other to have the best life possible. Running around from lover to lover is stressful to me and in the long run it doesn't make me happy... the short term is another story.</p>
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Amorettehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17970712422154732460noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23300018.post-22131171817617403332014-10-12T14:00:00.001-04:002014-10-12T14:28:10.547-04:00Weekend warrior<p>I spent the last four years suffering with a loss of adventure, a loss of my life. I need a companion who wants to spend his free time with me. I want weekends exploring outside the home and enjoying life. My ex was a workaholic. Working all week and coming home and working all weekend. I felt jailed in the house and alone. If he wasn't working on his hobbies we were at his friends or moms house helping with their hobbies or at the very least talking about them. My hobbies are contained to the weekdays when the day is nearly done and there isn't much other option. I need my partner to spend time with me. My friends are always doing things on the weekends with their boyfriends and I was just waiting for mine and now I am just out by myself. It's much more fun to take a road trip with a friend, visit a museum, travel to a local city... I can't have a happy relationship if I am expected to live my life alone while they are focused on themselves. I can remember every time we left the city for a weekend together: one of his friends weddings or to visit one of his friends homes or events. Once to visit my friends for a bbq (this was a shock), twice to my parents -- but only because he had to go near there anyway and it was a free place to sleep, he insisted we got there late and had to leave early. I can't count the number of times we spent the day at his moms house, that was at least 1 day a month. That is not a fun or happy life for me, that is just a life agreeing to someone elses plans. Over time I realized I had no say in what we were going to do and when my activity ideas were consistently rejected or overruled I stopped having ideas. If I wanted to do anything I had to do it on my own. So, not much has changed between then and now. People say they are "better off alone" for a reason. There is no one to disappoint me, except maybe myself.</p>
<p>Attached is a photo of a book page that resonated with me this morning.</p>
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i watched a documentary on a cancer researcher who got cancer over the weekend. of course that's going to be the worst time in someones life. and her family kicked her out of the home and didn't speak to her for the final years of her life. that's just awful. how can people be so badly behaved? i think i do not have family like that and i do not have a terminal illness so of course i can be grateful for my situation. i think everyone has the fears of growing older and being alone. if they do not have children (or have ungrateful, ill or children who die young).
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whenever you meet someone and welcome them into your life... don't you kind of wonder if they would be there for you, no matter what? Amorettehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17970712422154732460noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23300018.post-70868074553559419542014-09-11T19:54:00.001-04:002014-09-11T19:54:03.148-04:00There's nothing wrong<p>I've come to think there wasn't anything wrong with us. We're not defective people. We didn't know how to expose our feelings and emotional needs and solve problems without closing off or hurting each other. We didn't know what we were doing. I don't know what I will do different next time. I try to be open about things but sometimes I feel it gets brushed off and I just get blamed for being upset. Then I stop talking. I get angry and eventually I act out. I started off doing the right thing... But sometimes I just don't get heard. That's not something you can live with and stay happy.</p>
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Amorettehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17970712422154732460noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23300018.post-40059909344543493272014-09-03T16:26:00.000-04:002014-09-03T16:27:09.787-04:00summer is overor so they say. the weather is still glorious. i am back to riding the bike. the brakes were a pain to change because my front wheel isn't true anymore. i guess i crashed it too many times. i have to get one of those tools to tighten the spokes. oh and also because one of the bolts was stuck on. its moments like that you are trying to hold the hex key, the wrench and hit it with a hammer that you kind of wish you had man strength.
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</P>Amorettehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17970712422154732460noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23300018.post-50749367227833565702014-09-01T21:33:00.001-04:002014-09-01T21:34:48.543-04:00I really did<p>... love him. With all I had. Unfortunately he hurt me by not taking my needs seriously. He hurt me so I became unhappy/bitchy/negative/not fun... whatever you want to call it. It got to a place where if I said I was upset about something he no longer heard me, took it seriously or tried to change like he used to. He ignored it, he told me I was wrong, he ignored us... He went ahead and did whatever he wanted even if I asked him not to. He forgot the times I told him why I was upset and distilled everything to a belief that I was just upset without reason. I stopped trying to explain my feelings when they elicited no response and just hoped he would finally realize the truth of what I had said in the past (like how he takes my advice constantly while not remembering I gave him the advice). Things fell apart. I don't think I will ever understand how or why he stopped caring about my happyness. </p>
<p>I deserve someone who will never stop caring. Who won't sabotage us and then tell me there is something wrong with my personality. I am this way now because he hurt me, because he didn't value me. I wasn't like this when we met. I won't be like this when I forget.</p>
<p>amorette</p>
Amorettehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17970712422154732460noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23300018.post-73120656063991233062014-08-31T13:05:00.001-04:002014-08-31T13:05:58.054-04:00Never ending yard sales<p>I always go home for labor day weekend. Depsite the awful traffic. We are having a yard sale this weekend. What that means is, we are too lazy to buy a booth at the flea market and we would rather recoup $5-10 selling items than donate them or list them online. It's kind of a slow drawn out affair. Some people come at 9am and some people come at 5pm. No one seems to come between. Today there are a lot of slow drive bys.</p>
<p>My brain has been dictating awful dreams. It's hard to get over what's happened when your mind is lulling you back into the past when you are unconscious. I still find it hard to believe how quickly someone leaves your life when there had been so much good for so long. I feel like second chances aren't a thing anymore.</p>
<p>The bugs here are so loud. And constant. They get in your face, your ears, your eyes. We trapped one last night that had some kind of tail longer than its body. It was so disgustingly creepy I didn't even want a photo. I like bugs like inchworms. Those are cute. The rest can stay invisible.</p>
<p>The cat here doesn't like to sit with you and feigns sleep when you want to pet her. She plays, but doesn't fetch. Silly cat.</p>
<p>amorette</p>
Amorettehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17970712422154732460noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23300018.post-58792952795985233352014-08-29T11:03:00.000-04:002014-08-29T11:29:20.976-04:00An excerpt from a book I'm reading<p>
"It's Not You <i>27 (Wrong) Reasons You're Single</i>" by Sara Eckel
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Chapter: You're Too Negative
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Concerned about global warming? Apalled by the way money corrupts the democratic process? Notice that the restaurant manager is bullying his staff? If you're on a date, better keep those observations to yourself.
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Experts might disagree on how assertive or vulnerable or chatty one should be with the opposite sex, but on the subject of optimism we see near universal consensus: Smile, sweetheart.
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And who could argue with that? We all know people who whine endlessly, or whose depression puts them in a state of near paralysis. So obviously certain conversation topics—your meth-addicted father, your knee surgery—usually make lousy getting-to-know-you conversation fodder.
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But most of us already have the social grace to not overshare about our tax audits or plantar warts. Unfortunately, the incessant mantra of "be positive" implies that anyone who doesn't like her job or has a complicated relationship with her family—a fairly wide swatch of the population—must paper over these edgy truths with perky platitudes about bosses who are tough but fair.
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Even though I've always had what I consider a . . . realistic view of life, I tried to obey the common wisdom and keep it light and upbeat when dating.
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Sometimes the tone would stay that way, and we'd have a pleasant enough evening, talking about the work we enjoyed and vacations we were looking forward to. But those dates are mostly forgotten. The really good dates were the ones where we shed the positivity facade fairly quickly. The ones where we talked about divorce and stepfamilies and melting ice caps. The ones where we forgot to censor ourselves, forgot to <i>sell</i> ourselves and just <i>were</i> ourselves—two somewhat lonely human beings trying to figure it all out. (One of the things I liked about Internet dating was that it brings everyone to ground level—when you meet online with a Saturday-at-ten-p.m. time stamp, you can't play the my-life-is-amazing card.)
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Obviously, I'm not everyone's dream date. Sure <i>some</i> people would prefer that, when asked about your loathsome job, you take the advice of one pop psychologist: "Well, I don't know if I can say the <i>work</i> is fun, but the people are great!" Some people hate the sound of bad news.
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On the other hand, some of us hate the sound of bullshit. Some of us would rather hear, "You know, I've been doing this for fifteen years and I don't like the direction my profession is headed in, and I'm honestly pretty confused about what to do next." Whether a person is a "downer" or refreshingly honest is a matter of taste.
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Still, even if the dating gurus go overboard, wouldn't cultivating a positive attitude be a, you know, positive thing to do?
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Not necessarily. In <i>The Antidote: Happiness for People who Can't Stand Positive Thinking,</i> journalist Oliver Burkeman explains how trying to suppress negative thoughts can actually make them <i>more</i> prevalent, a phenomena called "ironic process theory."
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Most of us have done the thought experiment where you're instructed not to think of pink elephants, and then of course discover that trying to banish anything from your mind makes it more prevalent—trying <i>not</i> to think of pink elephants wildly ratchets up your awareness of pink elephants. This is why instructions to "think positively" don't work. "A person who has resolved to 'think positively' must constantly scan his or her mind for negative thoughts—there's no other way the mind could ever gauge its success at the operation—yet that scanning will draw attention to the presence of negative thoughts," wrote Burkeman.
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In one experiment, people who were told not to feel sad about an unfortunate event were more distressed than those who received no instruction. Another study found that anxiety sufferers who listened to relaxation tapes had faster heart rates than those who listened to audiobooks on non-relaxation-related topics. After the death of a loved one, people who suppress their grief take longer to heal than those who allow themselves to feel the pain of their loss. And it turns out, positive affirmations aren't just embarrassing—one study found that people with low self-esteem actually felt <i>worse</i> after reciting the affirmation "I am a lovable person."
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"From this perspective, the relentless cheer of positive thinking begins to seem less like an expression of joy and more like a stressful effort to stamp out any trace of negativity. . . . A positive thinker can never relax, lest an awareness of sadness or failure creep in," wrote Burkeman in the <i>New York Times</i>.
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The "be positive" advice makes you fear the dark. You've got all the lights turned on, constantly vigilant. Rather than trying to eradicate negativity, Burkeman takes inspiration from the Buddhists: It's a far more effective strategy to clearly see unfortunate circumstances or unpleasant emotions for what they are—part of life, nothing to freak out about. He sums up this philosophy with words from 1960s counterculture philosopher Alan Watts: "When you try to stay on the surface of the water, you sink. But when you try to sink, you float."
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This is the best dating advice I've ever heard. Instead of suppressing whatever cocktail of feelings—anxiety, ambivalence, lust—that's brewing as you walk into that restaurant, why not just note them and barrel on ahead?
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Dating is an act of outrageous vulnerability. You're leaving the comfort of your home and your friends to subject yourself to the scrutiny of strangers. You're sliding into that restaurant booth, plopping your laptop and gym bag on the floor, and saying, "Hi, I'm Sara. Let's see if we can start a life together, shall we?"
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It doesn't get more optimistic than that.
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<a href="http://www.amazon.com/Its-Not-You-Reasons-Single/dp/0399162879" target="_blank">"Its Not You" on Amazon.com</a><br>
<a href="http://www.amazon.com/The-Antidote-Happiness-Positive-Thinking/dp/0865478015" target="_blank">"The Antidote" on Amazon.com</a><br>
<a href="http://www.nytimes.com/2012/08/05/opinion/sunday/the-positive-power-of-negative-thinking.html" target="_blank">"The Positive Power of Negative Thinking" <i>New York Times</i></a>Amorettehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17970712422154732460noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23300018.post-4465375263240770302014-08-26T11:33:00.001-04:002014-08-26T11:53:55.455-04:00PCOS & depressionThis is my problem in an nutshell <a href="http://www.pcosdietsupport.com/lifestyle/pcos-and-depression/" target="_blank">pcosdietsupport.com/.../pcos-and-depression/</a>
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Depression makes it hard to avoid having negative thoughts... since having overwhelming negative thoughts is basically the definition of being depressed. Everyone has been telling me to "be more positive." That never used to be something I'd hear. But I've never been down for so long. Yes after failures, or breakups I have gone through depressions. But not prolonged like this to the point where it seems my whole personality has changed. Yes, easy for you to say to look at the bright side. It's not easy for me to do that. That is the point: when you are depressed nothing looks positive.
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I used my relationship as my positive pin. It was the thing keeping me hopeful. Now that it is gone, I've come loose. The depression has kept me from being able to be empathetic. It has kept me from being able to realize what was happening between us. It has kept me distant despite that not being my intention. For all intents and purposes, I appear changed, a different person, a person that is not fun to be around. I know this is not me, it is temporary. But it has been going on for so long it is hard for other people who have not known me my whole life to see that this is a phase and not a new state of being. I received my diagnosis midway into our relationship, so yes I'm not the same person you met on day 1. Not on day 1340. I'm struggling to be "me" again.
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The PCOS diet is so hard to stick to b/c I just crave carbs all the time (literally constantly thinking of food!). My mood goes up and down with my diet. I was really good for a year there (christmas 2012-2013) with all the fitbit tracking and weight loss and exercising. I did lose 12-13% of my body weight. Then my weight refused to go down any further and I got upset and I stopped doing all of the diet control and then the eating and everything (mood, energy) went right down hill again. My doctors also applauded the weight loss and stopped fat shaming me, so my motivation dwindled. My boyfriend never mentioned my weight, but he is not one to criticize (or compliment), so that did not contribute any motivation.
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The truth is eating crappy food makes me feel good when I'm eating it. I'm satisfying my craving. Ask me if I'm thinking about Doritos? Yes. Fried chicken fingers? Yes. Chinese? Yes, of course. You know the "honeycomb craving" commercial character? That's me. But as soon as I'm done eating it I feel like shit because my body does not like it (and I feel guilty). I feel like I'm going to fall dead asleep and could exist in a comatose state. I feel bad before I even get halfway through whatever I'm eating. Food control is a constant obsession that overruns every other thought of my day. ::what's breakfast? what's snack? what's lunch? what's snack? what's dinner?:: Being put on a 1200 calorie diet (nutritionist actually suggested less!) and told to exercise an hour a day is akin to telling you that you must be constantly hungry. I am constantly hungry. My brain is telling me I'm starving. This makes me more likely to be irritable and short tempered.
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This is the me right now. I didn't used to be this way. I used to just eat whatever/whenever, and not care; if I wanted to lose weight I'd go to the gym for a month and it would go away. I have to get to know myself all over again. Working to control myself and the food-depression-cycle has made me stressed, unhappy and negative because I feel like my body is fighting me. I can't live the lifestyle I was used to. I can't drink a lot, I can't eat whatever I want, I can't behave like everyone around me. It made me jealous of people I used to be friends with. The jealousy is toxic. I now associate food with gaining weight, with losing hair, with losing sexuality/femininity, with failure. Its like a strange eating-mood-disorder.
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This is a major contribution to the end of my last relationship. No one wants to talk about something that leaves them feeling unsexy and worried about their future health and their "womanly" characteristics. No woman wants to see their doctor shrug and say there is nothing else we can do and to just accept it.
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As a scientific minded person I want to understand everything. I want to fix everything. Its not easy to look at things objectively when your emotions are part of it. When you feel you are out of control of yourself and your own body and there are lists of supplements and medications and treatments a mile long you get overwhelmed. I don't like to be the subject of the science experment. My linen closet has turned into shelves of experimental solutions. Nothing provides immediate results and there's just not enough time or money to run all of the possible solutions in parallel. Plus, that doesn't give you any valid experimental results.
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I can try one thing at a time and wind up wasting time with no noticeable results. But in the end it all goes back to blaming the food. The food is the enemy. That's the beginning of an eating disorder talking. I don't want to be that food freak. Its turning out that I may just have to be that person to be a balanced person. I may have to increase the nuerotic food behavior to decrease the unwanted emotional behavior.
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Life is not easy. You can't appreciate the good if there isn't any bad, right?
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<3 amorette
</p>Amorettehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17970712422154732460noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23300018.post-26208391590133380782014-08-10T22:36:00.000-04:002014-08-10T23:02:56.311-04:00i define myselfnow that i am free i can do exactly what suits me. which makes me realize i'd rather not waste my time doing what suits everyone else. i can go to a party or a concert or whatever on a friday/saturday and have no one telling me that they are not into that and would rather i tag along with whatever they are doing. no one making me choose between their company or my other friends company.
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checked out Nantasket beach with some friends. was relaxing. the seagulls are over eager. they took a bag of chips out of my beach bag and ate the whole thing without leaving even a bit of crumbs. very efficient. i'd go back. gotta find the free parking though. need the local pro-tips.
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playing with the canon EOS XT a little bit. took the 28-80mm out to get some photos during the fire festival. good on food. night shots with handheld not so great, unless you like the light blur i guess. lots more testing to do.
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this post was after my last breakup, fall 2010. <a href=http://amorettenet2.blogspot.com/2010/12/end-of-2010.html target=_blank>"end of 2010"</a>. its happened all over again. this is the first time i've been single in the summer... for as long as i can remember.
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amoretteAmorettehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17970712422154732460noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23300018.post-49427913455566569702014-08-09T23:02:00.000-04:002014-08-10T22:54:58.174-04:00if that's how you really feel...... my life will be so much better without you
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you know how tswift sings "she's an actress..." well he was an actor. for almost 4 years he convinced me he was a loving boyfriend who just needed time with his friends and time to himself and his own space. and then he got tired of acting. he got tired of pleasing me and only wanted to please himself.
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i want someone who believes that love is selfless. i want someone know knows that we all have flaws but overlooks them to see the whole picture of self. if you both put your partner first, both your needs will be met. if i put him first and he puts everyone and their 2nd cousin first, well i know where we stand.
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here's to the end. here's to the sweat and the cheer, the lust, the tears and the hate, the whole circle of things. another long battle together to wind up alone and hurt. oh, but he's moving on. he has to jump right on someone else "because that's what men do." that's not what men do. you aren't some A-lister dude brah. you are a regular. a silent awkward small man. i really doubt you have the girls lined up waiting for you to call.
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unless you really are a faker and you had to line up a taker before you cut me loose. what a weak soul.
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i don't want someone who will take the easy way out. i don't want someone who will look at only the failed relationships and not at all the wonderful ones that last. you can't call me negative when you are the one saying that love isn't worth a little struggle to understand each other, a little pain when you didn't know why i did something... but didn't ask.
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you can't be quiet when your feelings are loud.
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i most definitely cannot read your mind. i cannot interpret your sexual dances. i do not think a request for a walk or a conversation is anything but a walk or a conversation.
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i am a real person. i am a giver. i always thought he was a giver. he gave and gave and gave in the end he said it was "not to make them like me, but to keep the peace." he thinks i do everything to make people like me? no. i don't. sorry. why do you think i often piss people off? because i am not doing everything to make people like me. i am doing what i can. i am doing what i like. i am not to be stepped on by everyone around me. unless they trick me and tell me they love me. then i get stepped all over. there is the loop hole.
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i need to close it
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amoretteAmorettehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17970712422154732460noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23300018.post-25696468026218013912014-08-08T14:28:00.002-04:002014-08-10T22:54:46.179-04:00time for a revampits been almost 2 years since the last post. i only blog when i need to talk to myself i guess. anyway. i'm getting into some new things. need some new people in my life as a whole bunch are now no longer part of my friend group. that's how it goes when your man leaves you... here's to the future. and the next heartbreak. its inevitable.
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the photo in the new refresh of this blog is from a recent trip to orchard beach maine. i've been aquiring loads more photo stuff, but this one was taken with my cell phone camera. once i find the right venue i can post my favorite dslr photos.
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amoretteAmorettehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17970712422154732460noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23300018.post-82775846830916129472012-09-19T12:30:00.002-04:002012-09-19T12:33:20.107-04:00september is cloudyi'm happy that fall is coming. it means i am busy at work. there are people on campus. eventually i'll work in apple picking & making a pie or two. play around with some fall color photos. there's the birthdays & halloween. i know more people now who celebrate their birthdays the same week as mine so we can't feel so bad about getting old when we're all adding a year at the same time lol. i've already started thinking of halloween costumes... we were trying to think of a theme and we talked about superheroes but i don't think everyone is agreeing on that. i do have a sweet dress for a catwoman outfit... but who knows if it would fit me yet. the weight loss is going slowly. as long as it doesn't go up i'm happy with the progress. i think just having the doctor harp on your weight is like peer pressure b/c you don't want to be embarrassed if you weigh more at the next visit.
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it is chilly out and biking to work is a little bit faster because i'm sweating less. its always threatening rain though... but I've been lucky and only biked in rain once so far. hopefully that continues! i did score some rain appropriate pants i can bike in at the goodwill. found a pair of lululemon brand ones & some random vintage brand. if my sport clothes are name brand that means i'm more fashionable when i wear them in lieu of regular clothes right?? i wish. its hard to go from "biking" to "work" to "evening" wear. they should address this on What Not To Wear. haha.
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the entourage is getting back together at the end of the month for a wedding! but we still have some single ladies to marry off! we all seem pretty much the same, just a little more tame w/age or wiser? lol. unfortunately the boyfriend can't make it but its fine b/c a lot of my friends are single so i can pay more attention to them and not have to include him in the conversation. also means i don't have to rent a hotel haha. although i think the guys in the group like when i bring someone b/c they get to talk to a dude instead of all these ladies ;p
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~ amoretteAmorettehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17970712422154732460noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23300018.post-41417638839832672302012-08-29T10:01:00.001-04:002012-08-29T10:02:32.189-04:00summer ends soon!time to admit its a sinus infection. gross. been playing phone tag with the nurses, its a pain they can't just agree w/me over the phone and prescribe something. internet seems to say they never know if its going to respond to antibiotics or not. last time i had one it was really bad so i went to the emergency room and they just gave me antibiotics. mucinex is helping b/c i don't have a fever. was grumpy after taking the T to work for 4 days so went back to biking today. had to take it a little easier. at least my knees have recovered. they were getting cranky.
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its crunch time at work. trying to get everything ready for the semester. so it'd be nice if my head was clear. unfortunately not going to be the case.
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i'm heading to CT two times this month. its the mom's birthday so i always head home for that & 2 of the college entourage are getting married so i'll be heading back for that at the end of the month. the bf is working a lot recently, looks like its tiring. at least i (usually) don't need extra hours to get things done.
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actually crisp outside today... summer is ending and i always feel like i didn't get to the beach enough. but it will be back to 90s by the end of the week so i can still get some time in :)
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i also want to get out and play with my new camera lenses. but when i'm not feeling 100% i usually just want to nap or laze out after i make it through work.
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i've been feeling like i don't ever want to listen to music because it doesn't sound good on my stereo for a long time. recently one of the speakers got really quiet and it sounded even worse. so i spent a while looking online for a replacement and i couldn't find a sub $250 setup that had good reviews for sound & build quality and the right size to fit on my bookshelf where the old one had been. and i had just gotten a new sound system last year for my tv that was $300 (my parents paid half as a birthday gift). so i just went to goodwill and spent $20 on a 5 disc changer that just hooks up to my tv sound system. i thought that was a little overpriced for something from 12 years ago but its a sony and has the optical connector. now its sounding decent. but i only have one optical input on my system so i have to choose whether the music gets it or the movies/tv. hmmm... i doubt i can even notice the difference. its not as good as if i had a full surround sound setup, since i only have a soundbar and subwoofer but its way easier and i didn't want to run wires and wireless is even more expensive. just hope i don't wear this system out too fast! wonder if that is realistic.
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~ amoretteAmorettehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17970712422154732460noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23300018.post-3955296628365193602012-07-23T15:31:00.000-04:002012-07-23T15:32:52.083-04:00shopping sampler<p class="mobile-photo"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgLijrtxC5LO-6xCIj4_zzIgDRj3DsKBS3NtBPhqjB3w62V7xzMHM5_udLdLMVmy8ZtELcYDflMfrzZsFATDZZIjeMdWVpvMhgSPYLEiIpOnOsyM5jOp8FBUkMz7UBgoOaQtAIn/s1600/shot_1343070115894-741539.jpg"><img src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgLijrtxC5LO-6xCIj4_zzIgDRj3DsKBS3NtBPhqjB3w62V7xzMHM5_udLdLMVmy8ZtELcYDflMfrzZsFATDZZIjeMdWVpvMhgSPYLEiIpOnOsyM5jOp8FBUkMz7UBgoOaQtAIn/s320/shot_1343070115894-741539.jpg" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5768450063780499490" /></a></p><div class="gmail_quote"><p>discovered a new to me local flea. got this sterling ring for five bucks... I think its handmade it has an odd little stamp next to the 925 mark... either a makers mark or an oops lol. did leave behind a claddagh ring I thought about getting but can't have everything! the background print is on my new jones new york cord skirt find at goodwill. somehow I knew it would be a perfect fit without even trying it on.</p> <p><3 amorette</p> </div>Amorettehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17970712422154732460noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23300018.post-15376364417204947902012-07-18T14:13:00.002-04:002012-07-18T14:18:14.043-04:00just a wednesdaylife has gotten in a groove. a summer groove. but luckily not the kind the bike tire gets stuck in and sends you toppling over.
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its been really warm in boston and i've been visiting the docs a lot trying to get some kind of answers. but its hard to get answers out of them. they are trying to diagnose me with something that is not really a bad or scary thing but not a definite thing. in other words, there's no test to say that i do in fact have it and there's no set list of side effects. its an individual thing, to each his own. we've looked at my weight changes over the recent years and its been decided i need to lose some. i've known this obviously, i look at myself. so 10-15% loss and i might not have any symptoms. that was only around 15-23 pounds at first visit. so, not that bad right?
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i joined a cheap gym. (i had decided the one at work was too expensive for the frequency i'd been going there) this ones closer to home. at this point i'm still not finding time to go often enough. the most i've gone is 3 times a week. so to make up for that lack of motivation i did not renew my t-pass this month. so now i'm bike commuting. put the $70 into fixing up my bike. its a cerca 1994 specialized hybrid, steel frame. put a new seat on, then needed a new seat post, then i realized the tires were probably original so replaced those, and the tubes. probably should have replaced the wheels but the bf tightened up some spokes so at least they spin truer.
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so since i started riding mid june about 11mi+ a day (+ if i go out anywhere other than just work then home). so far 5lbs down. most progress i can remember in a while. (they tell me that's a side effect, but i don't like to displace blame) i had been using the 'fitness pal' website to track my food and gym visits and it swore i would lose 1lb a week but i continued to lose absolutely nothing (in fact i gained). but i was never able to force myself to work out at the gym everyday, its so drab and seems like a drain of hours of my life i'll never get back. at least i can bike everyday b/c i have to get to work. i don't need to persuade myself to do it.
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i think i will take actual measurements once a month, to see if those change. i've never tried that approach before since just weight can go up due to muscle mass vs fat. i'm basically just using the gym for weights/weight related machines.
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maybe this year it won't snow either & i can ride all winter... i wish.
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we've had a lot of thunderstorms, as long as they are b/w 9-5 i'm ok ;p
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i've been frequenting the local pool. its busy now. too bad they don't have a free indoor one in the winter, but i'd never want to go if its cold. i never used the gym pool. and like most people i really can't swim. not fast or in any orderly fashion anyway.
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so now i just have to keep the focus. also need to focus on the condo and reducing my "stuff" and bringing some order to the place. its hard to keep it clean and sane in there with the roommate and the cat both making messes. and i just have too many clothes for my closet. i wish i had the room to put in a closet or the foresight to know i have too much and just buy a huge standalone clothes hanging rack instead of a dresser. its so hard to find things to wear in drawers, i've never gotten used it it and therefore don't wear at least 1/2 my clothes. i guess i had thought of this before... i was going to get an armoire, but a dresser was just so much easier to find.
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i should be getting out and playing with my camera also, get some photos up here. wrap up the site etc etc. i wonder if that will ever happen?
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<3 amoretteAmorettehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17970712422154732460noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23300018.post-1719460957544891372011-05-05T00:55:00.000-04:002011-05-05T00:56:41.413-04:00staydespite it all i still believe we can fall in love<br />& stay in love<br /><br />prove me right<br /><br />please<br /><br /><3 amoretteAmorettehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17970712422154732460noreply@blogger.com0